>Nothin’ like some echinoderm lovin’ for Christmas

>So, Christmas, I was sure, was going to suck this year.
I wasn’t going to see my parents because of finances and logistics…
I wasn’t going to be spending it with what once was my “family”…
My housemates would all be out of town seeing their families…
I had no Christmas tree whatsoever.

And none of my friends in my community were big fans of Christmas. A large portion of them, I recently discovered, were Jewish.

So, Christmas, I was certain, was going to suck this year.

Didn’t think I was going to feel as badly as I did this morning. I mean, I knew I was going to feel a bit melancholy this morning…especially after dropping my housemates and the Bug off at the airport. But as I drove home and Christmas music took over the radio and I drove past various shops and buildings and homes clad in holiday decor, it started to sink in. This was going to be my first Christmas without….well, Christmas.

I got home…wanted to go to my room…couldn’t. It had been scheduled ahead of time that the stairs were to be painted on Christmas day, as most people wouldn’t be home. I apparently am not most people. I had already taken all of my work-prep things downstairs to stay in the first floor guestroom, so I was prepared…but going up to see Prof. Pi would have been nice.

I entered the house, dumped off my backpack and the keys, went into the spare room, buried my face into the pillows and began to sob. It was horrible. All I wanted was to share Christmas with people I loved. It wasn’t going to happen this year. I wanted to sit by the tree and give gifts and laugh and smile and enjoy everyone’s happiness, to go and look at Christmas lights in the car…but it wasn’t going to happen. This year really, really hurt. I decided that next year I am definitely going home for Christmas. Home is wherever the people you love are.

I knew I had planned on going to the aquarium for the day since I discovered to my joy and delight that they were open from 12 to 5 on Christmas…then I had planned to go by Sev and Ethan’s afterward as I had been invited for Chinese food and movie marathons. But I allowed my negative feedback loop to engage (again…) and I felt so wretched and sad and alone that I didn’t feel anything could cheer me up. But then again, the alternative was to stay in the house while Andre, the short, chubby Russian painter worked on our stairs and intermittently tried to engage me in conversation. I opted for captive sea life on exhibit.

The aquarium was a bit more busy than I expected…and I don’t mean to sound racist when I say this, but most of the aquarium’s clientele today consisted of Asians and Jewish folks (I deduced this by several of the gentlemen wearing their kippahs…)
I took quite a few amazing photos which I will have to post later as the adapter to my camera is attached to my computer which is located on a desk that is in my room which is at the top of a flight of stairs which is atop yet another flight of stairs which is currently being painted and is thus inaccessible. So, the photos will have to wait. Which in unfortunate, because I do have a picture on there of me getting a special Christmas hug from a sea urchin…but, again, it will have to wait.
But I did take a pic of this guy on my phone:

I think the glare of the flash caused a weird effect where his nose looks like it’s on fire, but I can assure you it is not. Feeding time was taking place at the sea otter exhibit and I had arrived (for the second visit; i fell in love with these guys instantly and am currently in the process of proposing to my housemates that they permit me to keep one in the upstairs bathtub) just in time for feeding…which is what this guy was doing when I took a snapshot of him with the crappy camera feature on my cell phone. They had this hilarious mannerism which involved hoarding large amounts of shrimp on their bellies while floating around on their backs and shoveling aforementioned shrimp in their faces at record pace lest the other guys in the tank ran out. Every otter for himself. Though living in captivity with scheduled feedings I really don’t see any of them starving too badly.

So to sum up, going to the aquarium proved to be exactly what I needed and the interaction with people and being able to look and see and experience enabled me to realize that though I may not be having the traditional Christmas I wished for, there were still joyous things to experience and great people to interact with and share in the experience with.

Then to my utter delight, the universe decided to help my spirits by blanketing Seattle in a lovely Christmas snow. I’m not one to believe in “fate” or “destiny”, but I honestly do believe that the universe really did make the snow happen for me. Call it egocentric and self absorbed if you will, but I feel that it was meant to be that if I couldn’t have a traditional Christmas, I could at least have a white Christmas. So for everyone in Seattle who was tickled by the unexpected whiteness accumulating on trees and streets and rooftops…you can thank me. I may even decide to begin taking special requests.
voulez-voulez-vous would you like some frozen precipitation with that?

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